Life just seems harder these days. My husband and I are having problems, financial troubles, stress from the girls and a lot of stress is coming from his mother living with us. I started looking for a second job last week. No luck yet. I would love to find some thing a couple evenings a week and maybe one or two weekends a month. Not only for the money but to help me get out of the house and away from the stress. Labels: bitching, daily bs, family, me, stress
We let our daughter have a sleep over party for her birthday this past weekend. I thought if we kept it small (four girls) it wouldn't be a big deal. BUT it turns out four nine year old girls is a very big deal. They we so moody and mean to each other I was ready to drive them home by 9:00pm. Every game we played, some one cried. Every little while, some one was fighting or disagreeing. Girls are crazy. Never, ever again!
I woke up today with a stuffy nose, both ears plugged and feeling like crap. Even taking sinus pills I have been blowing my nose and complaining all day. I was fine yesterday and even last night. How the heck do you get this sick while you sleep?
I am such a baby, I hate being sick.
My plan for tonight is to soak in a hot bath and load up on cold meds and then go to bed early. I sure hope I beat this early and it doesn't drag on and on. This is not a good time to be sick.
How long is a mother suppose to worry, stress over and feel irresponsible for a twenty year old daughter that just wont get her life together? A daughter that is lazy and refuses to take responsibility? A daughter that loves drama and refuses to listen to any advise given? or make any changes for her self? Labels: bitching, family, me, stress
When is enough, enough?
Now before I vent about the men I work with I should point out that they are all very nice guys. I am very lucky to be working with such a great group of people. BUT for some strange reason they all feel they need to be my weather men. Ha ha ha.. let me explain! I sit in the front office and have about a dozen guys that work out back in our shop and as they walk through and pass my desk, which sits right in front of a large window let me point out, they all for some reason feel the need to comment on the weather. So when it's raining like today, I will hear "yep it's raining" or "wow, it's really raining" or " it's going to rain" or " the rain is really coming down now" at least five or six times in one afternoon. It really gets on my nervous some days! But because they are all like I said so very nice, I bite my tongue. But one of these days when I am stressed out I am going to snap at one of them or ask how I could NOT know it's raining, sitting here in front of a large window and all.
I don't know what I was thinking coming to work today. Not only do I have one of the worse colds I have had in a long time but my endometriosis is really acting up and I am in a lot of pain. I think it's the worse it's been in over a year. Thank goodness my husband and i both have doctor appointments today. I am hoping for a magic shot of some kind to kick this cold out of my system. If I take any more over the counter meds I think my stomach is going to fall apart. The only answer for me is go back home soon and soak in a warm bath and go back to bed for a while before seeing the doctor today. Labels: bitching, daily bs, me
I can not believe for the first time in over a year my husband and I forgot to set our alarm and woke up over an hour late this morning. I wish I could say my day has gotten better but it hasn't. Our office is dealing with switching to a new health insurance and all of my customers are feeling needy today. So to say I am feeling a little stressed is an understatement. I wont even get a break after work because it's my daughters Brownie night. There's no getting out of it either, she is speaking to the troop about her vacation in Europe. Labels: bitching, daily bs, family
I think I need a drink!
I would like to rewind my life about a year or a little bit more please. I need a do over. Particularity the day I said to my husband referring to his mother "well, she'll have to move in with us". Labels: bitching, family, stress
I am starting to think that the days I tell myself this isn't so bad, I am in some kind of dream land. It's starting to get to the point that I am worried that her living with us is going to break up my family. That eventually I am going to have enough and start packing. How sad is that!?
Yeah, I most definitely need a do over !
Blogger is acting really odd the last couple of days. My last couple of posts are not showing up. ??? Will this one???
I have been battling the stomach flu for a couple of days. I hate being sick and stuck in bed or on the couch. All I do is lay here and think about all the things I "should" be doing. To make it even worse, it's beautiful outside today. I would much rather be walking the dog or doing yard work then just laying here. Labels: bitching, daily bs, me
My laptop has been acting funny lately. I am hoping it's some thing with Fire Fox because it started after I did the last update. I keep getting a blurry white haze over the web page I am on and then Fire Fox closes. It's started to really tick me off and freak me out. I can NOT have any thing go wrong with this pretty pink baby. Labels: bitching, geeky, stress
I don't which is going to put me in an early grave first, my sixty year old mother in law that lives with us and acts like she is ninety, but only when it benefits her or my twenty year old daughter that has a baby and some times lives with us and some times lives with her jackass boyfriend? Labels: bitching, family, stress
I have to say my mood is a little bit better today then it has been all week. I have been going to bed between 9:00 and 9:30 pm every night and that seems to be helping some. Maybe it's helping to cut my evening at home short, I don't know? My husband has also been really sweet lately, when I see him. He works a lot leaving me with our daughter and his mother most of my evenings. I just keep trying to remind myself that as hard as it is to have my mother in law living with us and as much as I miss the way our life use to be, it's only a fraction of how much my husband misses his brother. It all stinks. Labels: bitching, family, stress
I am in such a dark and ugly mood today. Borderline depressed. I have been fighting the urge to scream and cry even since I walked in the door yesterday from work. Labels: bitching, family, stress
A year ago last week, my brother in law passed away. He lived with and helped support my mother in law, who has way too may issues (mostly mental) to list. When he died, she could no longer afford the apartment they shared so she moved in with us. I also should point out that she is the person I dislike, bump heads with, have very different views on life, most in the world. So, you can imagine how hard it is to have her living in my house. She is all about self pity and blaming the world for her problems. But I have a wonderful husband who I love so much, that I am trying to make this work. There are even days that I think this is not so bad, but they are far and getting more few between.
The stress of having my mother in law live with us and the stress that we have put on our selfs in the way of bills, some days just feels like too much. Today is one of those days.
I have two daughters, one is eight and in the third grade and the other is twenty, lives with her no good boyfriend and has a seven month old baby girl. Labels: bitching, daily bs, family, me, stress
Which daughter do you think stresses is me out more?
I'll tell ya, these days it's coin toss. It's a wonder I am not an alcoholic by now.
Our laptop stop working this afternoon. Out of the blue it just can't find a wireless connection. My husband checked all the usual issues and thinks it could be the wireless switch has gone bad. It's less then a year old so I am pretty pissed off about it. Thank goodness we are blessed with three other computers in the house or I would be a real mess right now. Labels: bitching, computers, geeky