Stress

Life just seems harder these days. My husband and I are having problems, financial troubles, stress from the girls and a lot of stress is coming from his mother living with us. I started looking for a second job last week. No luck yet. I would love to find some thing a couple evenings a week and maybe one or two weekends a month. Not only for the money but to help me get out of the house and away from the stress.

Enough ?

How long is a mother suppose to worry, stress over and feel irresponsible for a twenty year old daughter that just wont get her life together? A daughter that is lazy and refuses to take responsibility? A daughter that loves drama and refuses to listen to any advise given? or make any changes for her self?
When is enough, enough?

Can I get a do over ?

I would like to rewind my life about a year or a little bit more please. I need a do over. Particularity the day I said to my husband referring to his mother "well, she'll have to move in with us".

I am starting to think that the days I tell myself this isn't so bad, I am in some kind of dream land. It's starting to get to the point that I am worried that her living with us is going to break up my family. That eventually I am going to have enough and start packing. How sad is that!?

Yeah, I most definitely need a do over !

Acting up

My laptop has been acting funny lately. I am hoping it's some thing with Fire Fox because it started after I did the last update. I keep getting a blurry white haze over the web page I am on and then Fire Fox closes. It's started to really tick me off and freak me out. I can NOT have any thing go wrong with this pretty pink baby.

Neverending Family Stress

I don't which is going to put me in an early grave first, my sixty year old mother in law that lives with us and acts like she is ninety, but only when it benefits her or my twenty year old daughter that has a baby and some times lives with us and some times lives with her jackass boyfriend?

A little better of a mood

I have to say my mood is a little bit better today then it has been all week. I have been going to bed between 9:00 and 9:30 pm every night and that seems to be helping some. Maybe it's helping to cut my evening at home short, I don't know? My husband has also been really sweet lately, when I see him. He works a lot leaving me with our daughter and his mother most of my evenings. I just keep trying to remind myself that as hard as it is to have my mother in law living with us and as much as I miss the way our life use to be, it's only a fraction of how much my husband misses his brother. It all stinks.

Feeling Dark & Ugly

I am in such a dark and ugly mood today. Borderline depressed. I have been fighting the urge to scream and cry even since I walked in the door yesterday from work.

A year ago last week, my brother in law passed away. He lived with and helped support my mother in law, who has way too may issues (mostly mental) to list. When he died, she could no longer afford the apartment they shared so she moved in with us. I also should point out that she is the person I dislike, bump heads with, have very different views on life, most in the world. So, you can imagine how hard it is to have her living in my house. She is all about self pity and blaming the world for her problems. But I have a wonderful husband who I love so much, that I am trying to make this work. There are even days that I think this is not so bad, but they are far and getting more few between.

The stress of having my mother in law live with us and the stress that we have put on our selfs in the way of bills, some days just feels like too much. Today is one of those days.

Family Stress

I have two daughters, one is eight and in the third grade and the other is twenty, lives with her no good boyfriend and has a seven month old baby girl.
Which daughter do you think stresses is me out more?
I'll tell ya, these days it's coin toss. It's a wonder I am not an alcoholic by now.